Pearl Jam‘s Eddie Vedder made his first guest appearance on The Howard Stern show for a two-hour conversation. Along with sharing humorous stories and chatting about the new Peal Jam record, Vedder opened up about Chris Cornell’s death.
“I’ve had to be somewhat in denial,” Vedder said. “I don’t feel like I had a choice. I was terrified of where I’d go if I allowed myself to feel what I needed to feel or what I was instinctively wanting to feel or how dark I felt like I was going to go.”
“I didn’t see him that often in the last 10 years, probably just four or five times and usually at a gig or something,” Vedder continued. “I still haven’t dealt with it. I’ll get stronger as time goes.”
Vedder also revealed that his half-brother Chris died unexpectedly a year earlier due to a climbing accident in Africa.
“That one took me down so hard, and my brothers, and my mom,” he said. “I seriously didn’t know if I was going to get out of that one. It really hurt me to think about what my daughters were witnessing, but there was no hiding it and it was a dark place. I just couldn’t deal with the reality.”
Earlier in the show, Vedder covered Warren Zevon’s “Keep Me in Your Heart.” He also played bits of Pearl Jam songs “Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town” and “Sometimes.”